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Morning Talk: Crossroads

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I turned 30 this year. A life stage I was a bit scared to enter because I considered myself as someone who is not mature enough yet as people at this age should have become. In the past few years, many things happened, and many things changed, especially my perspectives, insights, life values, and things I perceive life. Four years ago, when I was 26, I wrote about Quarter Life Crisis (you can read it here ). It just feels nice to be able to go back to old posts because I can recall what I was feeling at that time, what I was thinking, what made me insecure the most, how I perceived life, and how I valued myself and others. In short, four years ago, I can say that I experienced QLC too; I saw my friends getting married one by one, or having remarkable achievements in their life, and honestly, I couldn't stop myself from not comparing. Like, Hey, I want it too! When my time comes? When the good things will happen to me? So, what it's like to be at 30? We have our own good and ba

24/7

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Happy birthday to the love of my life. My 24/7. My everything. I know I cannot say any birthday greeting to you because you believe our faith doesn't celebrate this kind of life event. So, let me share a little story about you here. You are the one who treats me like a princess Who never raises your voice to me Who continuously supports my dreams and encourages I can do it Who introduces me to nature and it changes my life forever, in a good way Every time I got home, you prepared hot water for my bath without asking and bought my favorite food You are the one who excitedly asks how my trip is going and becomes a good listener Who reminds me to solat 2 rakaat when I tell I face a hard time Who shows love unconditionally through the endless act of service, and unconsciously, gives me a picture of what kind of partner I want to be with in the future I feel blessed and lucky to have a father like you Sometimes I wondered if you are no longer in this life, what my life will be, because

What I Eat in A Day

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“Selamat pagi, Kawan. Jangan lupa sarapan.” Sapa seorang senior di WhatsApp Group (WAG) komunitas lari trail . Hampir tiap pagi beliau menyapa sambil kirim foto menu sarapan sehat berwarna-warni yang menggugah selera. Usianya 40+ tapi masih aktif berolahraga dan menjalankan pola hidup sehat. Terinspirasi dari foto-foto sarapan unggahan beliau, gua mau cerita apa aja yang gua makan dalam sehari. Sekalian buat dokumentasi pribadi biar gua inget pola hidup gua di umur 30. Sarapan ala Cak San Sebagai info, gua hidup sendiri (ngekos) dan masih WFH (Work from Home), jadi gua lebih sering masak sendiri. Gua bukan vegan/vegetarian/pescatarian, tapi coba nerapin pola hidup sehat. Fokus gua: 1. Pilih makanan raw , 2. Kurangi processed foods , 3. Usahain makan buah dan sayur tiap hari, 4. Kurangi makanan tinggi gula karena bokap ada diabetes. PAGI Menu: oatmeal + pisang + granola Oatmeal, salad, green tea Gua sarapan sekitar jam 8 dan sarapannya cukup simpel. Sejujurnya gua cenderung malas be

30

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I'm official “kepala tiga”! It is exciting and scary at the same time. Responsibility is getting bigger, while our energy is getting more limited. But, most of all, I was so grateful and happy to spend my special day vacation with close friends, surrounded by people I love and love me too. Ok, as usual, I want to share some points that sum up my life in the past year. IT IS NOT advice, wisdom, or life hacks, just a note of what I have been going through, so I can remember what it’s like on the way to 30. Here it is. 1.        Black dress never goes wrong. 2.        Fine dining always makes me delightfully fine. 3.        Ask our best friend once in a lifetime: Mau kado apa? It is very fulfilling. 4.        "Setiap manusia di dunia. Pasti punya kesalahan. Tapi hanya yang pemberani. Yang mau mengakui." – Sherina 5.        Yep, the hardest part is admitting our mistakes and apologizing. Then we will realize that apology and forgiveness are one kind of beauty in life. 6.     

Rayakan

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Tangis tak bisa kembalikan Apa-apa yang tidak ditakdirkan Juga tak dapat menjangkau Sisa-sisa romansa lampau Tangis tak bisa menukar rindu Sepanjang tak mewujud temu Ia tak sama dengan lemah Tak serupa pula dengan rendah Tangis adalah tanda sederhana Bahwa kau juga manusia Sebagian mungkin malu Tuk tunjukkan sisi itu Sini Kita urai gelisah dan air mata Tanpa pikir ini sudah jam berapa Sebab tiap rasa itu benar Tiap cerita perlu didengar Tumpahkan senyamanmu, duhai sayangku Kita rayakan hidup ini Sekali lagi

Tawa dan Tangis

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 “Habis nangis ketawa, habis ketawa ya nangis.” Ungkapan yang entah muncul dari jaman kapan tapi benar adanya. Minggu malam gua dan Kinan telponan. 2,5 jam. Kalo bukan karena udah masuk jam tidur gua, kayanya bisa lanjut sampe berjam-jam. Kaya biasa, banyak yang diobrolin, life updates . Karena kami jarang telponan, jadi sekalinya telponan ga bisa sebentar. Dan isinya lebih banyak ketawanya. Senin pagi, sekitar jam 10, lagi WFH, tiba-tiba gua keinget suatu hal yang bikin gua sedih, terus nangis. Mungkin karena malemnya abis ngobrolin ini sama Kinan, jadi keinget lagi. Sebuah fakta yang ga bisa gua ubah, sekeras apapun gua berusaha. Kalo ini terjadi, gua takes time buat bersedih dan lanjut berdoa dalam hati: Semoga hati ini makin diluaskan dan dilapangkan untuk menerima kenyataan yang ada. Ameen. Abis doa terlintas kalimat di awal, iya ya abis ketawa ya nangis. Shit.

2021: A Peace of Mind

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2021 was a true definition of a roller coaster for me. It was lots of surprises, from the biggest laugh to the silent tears. But, most of all, I’m so grateful I’m still breathing until this time. Quick update, the pandemic is still here and I'm still practicing WFH. Okay, so here’s my highlight for 2021. I wrote it in order of time. 1.        Getting out of my comfort zone: A speaker One of my friends from a college organization asked me to be a speaker on the online talk show. I softly denied it at first because public speaking is something I dislike since a long time ago. I just don’t feel confident talking in front of people. But I accepted it in the end. It was an online event so I thought I can handle it.   The event was live via Instagram for around an hour. I shared about trail running, its mandatory gears, and some tips for beginners. I was so nervous at first, but it went smoothly later. I started enjoying the talk and didn’t realize I talked too much in the end, hahaha. M