Showing posts from January, 2019

The Art of Friendship - Ale

“Ada apa?” I tried to calm myself as I could when this kind of moment came. I have been thinking if I have to let him go this time, I’ll probably be fine. It was just surprising that my friendship with Ale turned complicated a bit like a real couple. Started when Ale had a new gf in college that made it difficult for me to find “curhat” time anymore. Later, I moved to Atambua for work then our communication decreased in frequency. Being in a distance gives me a good opportunity to know who’s worth keeping and who’s letting go (Lana del Ray). Those who truly care would stay. That was the law of nature. Gratefully, most of my friends were maintain-less. Entering a work life, we didn’t talk regularly as we realized we were getting busy. But, if we wanted to, we did. We would find a time to make it happen. And, you know, living in a remote area and having bunch of people who did contact you was heart-warming. People says your number of friends will get smaller as you get older. It sud

2018: Life is Beautiful

Before it’s gone from my mind, I’d like to share my biggest lesson in 2018. If I have to describe in one word, it’s a roller coaster (ups, sorry it’s two words). Stepping into the year with a deep wound, I was totally miserable. Empty. Lost. Useless. I reached a lowest point as a human being that led me once to a thought to donate one of my kidneys if it could make me feel useful again. LOL. Now, I laughed loudly every time I remember that low moment. So, what’s the biggest lesson of mine for the past year? It’s self-love. Yes, self-love. What is self-love? It is a state of appreciation for oneself that grows from actions that support our physical, psychological and spiritual growth ( It allows us to take a moment to see inside ourselves, dive in, and re-recognize the best version of ourselves. We know our strengths and acknowledge weaknesses then try to accept it little by little, step by step. We take a moment to define our purposes and values in life