Savana Rinjani

I rarely post something about my love life on social media, or even on this blog. Whenever I shared something here, my boyfriend would tease me that he never made an appearance in my stories. I would just smile, and we’d both laugh. It became a small inside joke between us. It’s not that I don’t want to share my happiness. On the contrary, I actually enjoy sharing little moments of my life. But there are two reasons. First, my last relationship didn’t work out. I used to post about us quite often, and when we broke up, those posts suddenly felt heavy. I felt embarrassed, almost as if I had shown too much of something that didn’t last. Since then, I’ve become much more careful about my love life and about whom I’m currently seeing. Second, I cannot control others’ reactions after seeing my posts: assumptions, jealousy, unnecessary comments. But that’s social media anyway. You post, you bear the risk. There were many times I wanted to share something about my relationship, but I en...

2025 has been a CRAZY year for me, both good and bad. Looking back, I realize that all of them became valuable lessons to absorb, process, and eventually grow from. 1. Traumatic events Yep, I started the year with traumatic events. It was mentally draining. What I felt was a heaviness in my chest, humiliation, and a deep sense of disrespect. Day after day, I found myself questioning my values. Do people really treat others like this? Do I still belong here? Is it just me, or is it the post-colonial mindset that happened very subtly? As I moved through each day, one thing became clear: some of my values no longer align here, the place where I grew up. 2. Going to therapy One of the best decisions I made this year was going to therapy. Nowadays, people in my country are more aware of mental health issues, especially among younger generations. They are more open to talking about it, and some no longer feel ashamed to seek professional help. But still, deciding to seek one on my own requir...

  –English version available below– Moin! Memasuki bulan ketiga di Jerman, mulai kerasa sibuk dan perlu adaptasi, terutama aspek pembelajaran. Pertama, otak dorman ini perlu dipanasin lagi karena udah lama ga sekolah. Terakhir sekolah itu 2014 :) Kedua, adaptasi sama sistem pendidikan di sini yang beda banget sama di Indo. Contohnya, di program gua, tiap minggu ada PR baca paper, yang nantinya didiskusiin di kelas. Nah, ada satu paper yang lumayan menarik–sekaligus mengusik. Papernya ngebahas tentang penggunaan istilah "Sustainability" dan "Socio-ecological Transformation" (SET). Intinya, di paper itu bilang bahwa akhir-akhir ini istilah Sustainability semakin marak dipake, gaungnya dimana-mana. Tapi di dunia akademik itu sendiri malah dirasa kurang cocok, karena katanya kurang mampu merefleksikan kompleksitas yang sesungguhnya terjadi di masyarakat. Bahkan, istilah ini seringkali dipake sama oknum yang justru action-nya ga sustainable. Lalu, istilah apa yang lebih ...