2025: Press the Reset
2025 has been a CRAZY year for me, both good and bad. Looking back, I realize that all of them became valuable lessons to absorb, process, and eventually grow from.
1. Traumatic events
Yep, I started the year with traumatic events. It was mentally draining. What I felt was a heaviness in my chest, humiliation, and a deep sense of disrespect. Day after day, I found myself questioning my values. Do people really treat others like this? Do I still belong here? Is it just me, or is it the post-colonial mindset that happened very subtly? As I moved through each day, one thing became clear: some of my values no longer align here, the place where I grew up.
2. Going to therapy
One of the best decisions I made this year was going to therapy. Nowadays, people in my country are more aware of mental health issues, especially among younger generations. They are more open to talking about it, and some no longer feel ashamed to seek professional help. But still, deciding to seek one on my own requires a ton of courage. Thankfully, I'm surrounded by a supportive circle. I have friends to talk to, especially since finding a suitable therapist here is another big homework.
Before consultation, I wrote down ALL the stuff that had been bothering me: my feelings, frustrations, steps I had taken, and the dead ends. I wanted to make sure I remembered every point I needed to talk about. In the beginning, I was very nervous as I had never done this before. But my therapist handled it very well, with care and professionalism. I went through my issues one by one, and time really flew by. Before the session ended, I asked how long a consultation usually lasts. She said the average is 2 hours, but mostly 1,5 hours. I ended up spending 3 HOURS there, hahaha. I felt so comfortable that the conversation just flowed naturally.
My takeaway from the session: it's not about fixing the issues, but about seeing them from a broader and more logical perspective. All my questions and struggles were explained thoroughly through the lens of psychology, which helped me make sense of them. I could accept the explanations more easily because they were grounded in knowledge. Even though, as a friend said, the suggestions were not something new, and I've even applied them before. But all I need is hearing the scientific explanations behind them, the "why".
Shortly, I have been practicing the suggestions for 2 months, and I can already see the results. I manage my expectations better and become firmer about what I currently strive for at this stage of my life. Above all, I'm truly grateful to have found my therapist. I wouldn't be standing here in Germany today without her professional support. Danke Ibu!
3. Press the reset
Yep, I'm currently in Germany for my master's program. I shared more details here: Moin! My First Month in Germany. Looking back, I never expected this to happen so soon. Sometimes, I thought, Oh, maybe this is a silver lining after all the unpleasant experiences I went through before. I believe that things happen for a reason; sometimes we understand it, sometimes we do not. I also believe that we are swimming to places we belong. No matter how hard we want to be in a certain place, if it's not meant to be, we'll never be. Moving to a new country is a huge leap for me. I feel both scared and excited at the same time. It's like a big reset in my life: a new culture, new food, new environment, new weather, new people, and a new home. And every time I hear reset, it reminds me of one of my favorite songs from Suju... Press the reset!
My wish for 2026: learn well, pass all subjects, and be fluent in German!
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