Savana Rinjani

“Jangan ribet-ribet mau investasi, duitnya ada kagak???” Pertanyaan ini menimbulkan tawa ringan yang disusul obrolan hangat di antara dinginnya perbukitan Sukabumi. Bertemu dengan orang-orang ini adalah momen yang selalu gua tunggu. Sambil menanti adik-adik tiba dari gunung, gua ngobrol santai sama salah satu senior yang menurut gua udah mencapai financial freedom dalam hidupnya. Maklum, di umur segini, tema investasi lagi cukup seksi buat dibahas. Dan menurut gua pribadi, yang wajib di- invest sejak muda gak cuma keuangan aja, tapi juga kesehatan dan… buku! 1. Investasi Keuangan Bagian ini bakal panjang karena ngomongin finansial ternyata seseru itu! Gua sendiri baru melek sama isu finansial dua tahun belakangan. Dulu pas awal kerja, ngerasa seneng banget bisa ngehasilin duit sendiri dan larut sama sindrom YOLO alias You Only Live Once. Gak bisa lihat tanggal merah dianggurin gitu aja. Gak salah sih, cuma nyesel karena waktu itu gak dibarengi sama pengetahuan finansial yang mu...

G: Hi Raf, how are you? R: Hi Git, good, and you? G: Not bad. Raf, do you still have a postcard I sent to you? R: I think so, but let me check first. What’s up, Git? G: Can I have it back? R: Eh, why, Git? G: Or, can you please take a pic of it? Curious of what I wrote years ago. R: Ok. Hai Raf, How are you? How is Bira? Hope you enjoy your days working there. Raf, I don't know how to say it but I just want you to know that I will be here for you. I love listening to every single story you share, will always do. You know, I like spending time talking with you. Sehat-sehat ya, Raf." Dewata, 2016 Rinjani

Pembicaraan mengalir begitu seru hingga tak terasa dua jam sudah kami berada di sudut kafe. Lari dan literasi, dua tema yang sama-sama kami minati. Isu seksi quarter life crisis juga tak luput dari diskusi. Sosok wanita di depan saya ini penuh energi. Baru setahun saya mengenalnya. Kami satu komunitas. Obrolan malam itu seakan tak ada habisnya. Kami sama-sama bersemangat. Terus menimpali satu sama lain. Paginya, saya coba mengingat potongan obrolan semalam. Sebagian ingat, tapi ada juga yang tidak. Wait, wait, kemarin dia bilang S1-nya ambil apa ya? Hmmm... Kok gw ga inget... Kalo univ-nya? Duh, ga inget juga... Sepikun itu kah gw... Well, padahal ini hanya detail minor. Saya coba ingat lagi sekuat tenaga, tapi tetap lupa. Kejadian seperti ini bukanlah yang pertama. Selesai ngobrol sama orang, beberapa kali saya lupa sama hal-hal kecil atau bagian minor dari cerita seperti nama tempat, nama orang, waktu kejadian, rencana mendatang, profil sesuatu. Menilik ke belakang, saya te...

Roma, an award-winning movie for Best Foreign Language Film in Golden Globe Award 2018 has caught my attention. It reminded me of someone who had shown me what love is. This black-and-white movie took set during political chaos in 1970s Mexico. Roma told a story about a young domestic worker named Cleo who works for a rich family. Like a common housemaid, she does mundane activities in a big house, including taking care of four children. Less dialogue, Cleo does everything wholeheartedly. The family whom she works for is very kind to her, and so are the kids. They make a strong bond with Cleo. Honestly, I was so moved while watching it, not only because of the sad scenes but also because of the storyline that brought me to a similar feeling of a person I knew. A person who loved me sincerely. Cleo reminded me of mba Sri right away, mom’s niece from my hometown who used to be a caregiver in my family. I think mba Sri was the same age as Cleo. She was just a junior high school gradua...

Ada begitu banyak cerita hari ini yang terlewat. Tak satu huruf pun sempat didengar oleh dunia. Namun kehadirannya tetap dirasa oleh semesta. Semua ruang yang biasa sedia, tenggelam oleh kesibukan fana. Bahkan jemari tak punya energi untuk berbagi. Untuk memulai. Untuk sekadar bertanya, pada ruang-ruang di ujung sana, sedang apa? Jutaan manusia merasa yang sama. Namun sekuku yang dalam pada itu berjodoh dengan ruangnya. Sisanya hanya memandang ke luar jendela tanpa memandang ke luar jendela. Ditekannya dengan kuat seluruh sesak di dada dengan air mata. Sebab ia tak kunjung jumpa siapa-siapa hingga bus biru tiba di kota. Yang kian terjadi akhir-akhir ini ialah potongan adegan fiksi berputar di kepala tanpa sutradara. Dibayangkannya kata tiap kata dari pemeran utama dan kata tiap kata dari lawan bicara. Semua hanya umpama sebab ruang yang biasa sedia entah dimana. Ah, semoga ia belum gila.

“Ada apa?” I tried to calm myself down when this kind of moment came. I have been thinking if I have to let him go this time, I’ll probably be fine. It was just surprising that my friendship with Ale became a bit complicated like a real couple. It started when Ale had a new gf in college that sometimes made it difficult for me to find “curhat” time anymore. Fast forward, I moved to Atambua for work and then our communication decreased in frequency. Being in a distance gives me a good opportunity to know who’s worth keeping and who’s letting go (Lana del Ray). Those who truly care would stay. That was the law of nature. Gratefully, most of my friends were less maintenance. Entering a work life, we didn’t talk regularly as we realized each of us was getting busy. But, if we wanted to, we did. We would find a time to make it happen. And, you know, living in a remote area and having a bunch of people who did contact you was heart-warming. People say your number of friends will get sma...

Before it’s gone from my mind, I’d like to share my biggest lesson in 2018. If I have to describe it in one word, it’s a roller coaster (ups, sorry it’s two words). Stepping into the year with a deep wound, I was totally miserable. Empty. Lost. Useless. I hit the lowest point as a human being which brought me once to a thought to donate one of my kidneys if it could make me feel useful again. LOL. Now, I laughed loudly every time I remember that low moment. So, what’s the biggest lesson of mine for the past year? It’s self-love. Yes, self-love. What is self-love? "It is a state of appreciation for oneself that grows from actions that support our physical, psychological, and spiritual growth" (www.psychologytoday.com). It allows us to give a space for ourselves to see inside, dive in, and re-recognize the best version of ourselves. We know our strengths and acknowledge weaknesses and then try to accept them little by little, step by step. We take a moment to define our ...